Dating While Separated

When we were apart, I was angry that we were apart. I was furious with her for rejecting me. I hated being alone.

I decided to find someone better.

So I talked to many women, and something in me just cringed with each of them. Now that I was looking at them as potential dating partners, they somehow lacked any appeal. Sure, some were pretty, some were nice, some had lots going for them... but none were my wife, and they paled by comparison.

So I continued searching, online and in real life, far and wide, for weeks and months. And no-one caught my heart.

And I was angry and upset. I wanted love. I deserve love. I need love.

But I didn't feel love until the day, six months later, that my heart softened and shattered and turned in full back towards my wife.

I never found anyone that I really wanted to be with. They all were dull and uninteresting by comparison. Even while I hated my wife, no-one else could take her place.

And in the middle of that tremendous, aching void, I realised that all I ever wanted was found in her.

I love her with my entire being, heart and soul and mind and strength. I want her and no-one else, now and forevermore. I hope and pray that her heart will soften towards me, and she will embrace me again.